
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
LOVE, MAYA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
LOVE, MAYA
WE WENT TO A NEW CHURCH TONIGHT IN TEMPLE, TX. IT WAS AWESOME!!! MAYA WENT TO THE NURSERY FOR HER VERY FIRST TIME. SHE CRIED A LITTLE WHEN I FIRST LEFT HER BUT THEN SHE WAS OKAY. SHE WAS SO BAD THIS AFTERNOON. SHE JUST CRIED AND SCREAMED FOR HOURS. NOTHING I DID WOULD CALM HER. SO WE BOTH ENDED UP IN TEARS. SHE WAS JUST SO SLEEPY AND WOULD NOT GO TO SLEEP. SO I CONCLUDED THAT I WAS A HORRIBLE MOTHER. SHE WOULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME. I THINK SHE WAS GLAD TO SEE ME ATER CHURCH. SHE JUST KEPT GIVING ME BIG SLOPPY KISSES. I MUST CONFESS THAT I AM SO TIRED AND SINGLE PARENTHOOD IS WAY HARDER THAN I THOUGHT. I WAS ADJUSTING GREAT UNTIL I HAD TO GO BACK TO WORK. NOW, IT IS LIKE I AM STARTING OVER. I HATE TO LEAVE MAYA BUT I HAVE TO WORK. SHE DOES GREAT WITH DEBORAH!!! HOWEVER, THIS MORNING AT 3 AM MY CELL PHONE RINGS AND IT IS DEBORAH WANTING TO KNOW WHAT SHE SHOULD DO. MAYA WAS SOBBING FOR ME. I HOPE LEAVING HER GETS BETTER. I ONLY LEAVE HER WHEN I HAVE TO. I JUST WANT HER TO BE HAPPY. SHE IS MY PRIDE AND JOY AND I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR HER.
EDITED TO ADD: I AM NOT GOING TO GO IN TO MUCH DETAIL BUT PLEASE PRAY HARD FOR ALL THE PROBLEMS WITH GUATEMALAN ADOPTIONS. WE NEED TO DO WHATEVER WE CAN TO GET THESE BABIES HOME. WE WILL FIGHT TO THE END!!!!!!!